"The LORD hath done great things for us; whereof we are glad."
-Psa 126:3
"Declare his glory among the heathen; his marvelous works among all nations." -1Ch 16:24
The Lord has indeed done great things for me; whereof I am glad. And this entry, just like the rest is to delcare His glory and marvelous works to everyone.
He has graciously seen me through the course and I've finally officially completed my course here as of today. My journey here has not been an easy one. There were many ups and downs but through it all, the God of heaven and earth has seen me through it all. He has upheld me during my lows and given me that quiet, confident assurance that He is sovereign and in abosolute control regardless the situation. When I humble myself and plead with the Lord in times of anxiety, God warms my heart and fills my inner being with a peace that cannot be explained and passeth all understanding. The Lord is indeed the only true and living God who is worthy and greatly to be praised and worshipped.
I joined the airforce with the hope of being a fighter pilot but was not sure what what the will of God is for me. I did pray asking God to deny me the chance to even start a career in the airforce if it is His will not for me to be a fighter pilot in fear that I would face that dreaded day of disappointment when i do not become a fighter pilot. But at the same time, there was a small part of me who did not mind being a pilot of other platform if it was really God's will not for me to be a fighter pilot. Daily, I earnestly prayed and committed this matter unto God and it was to be that as the days went by, and as God guided me through each phase, from the medical check ups, to my selection phase and up to my current course here, the desire to be a fighter pilot grew. I believe that even as I daily commit this matter unto God and acknowledge Him in my ways, He has directed my paths and even placed in me this growing desire to be a fighter pilot.
People did tell me that because of my age, it is not in my favour to be in the fighters. Learning rate for me would be slower than the younger ones and the many possible considerations that the organisation has in selecting and sending people for fighter training is not in my favour. And besides, I did not have perfect eyesight and have slight sinus problems. But the Lord has mightily and graciously overcame the odds for me. He has granted me extra discipline and strength, which I've never had in my many years of academics, to study and prepare for sorties. He has sustained and kept me in good health during my course of stay here. I have not fallen ill once so far and it is solely by the sustainance and mercies of God. He has granted me clear, unblocked nose to fly daily, grace to fly reasonbly well and learn fairly fast. How Marvellous God is!
And as if all that is mentioned is not enough to show that it is the mighty arm of God that has brought me through thus far, my course starts diminishing in number. From past statistics, generally the top 1/3 will usually be selected and sent to fighters. As mentioned in the previous post, it would statistically not be in my favour if the number in my course were to reduce. It would only mean that there would be lesser fighter slots. As the streaming day for my course drew nearer, there were rumours going around that for our course of 8, there would only probably be 2-3 fighter slots at most. I am ashamed to say but my heart sank and there were moments when I did waiver in faith and wonder whether it is God's will for me to actually go to the fighters. But these moments did not last long for I was quickly snapped back into the correct perspective of how small these matters are compared to who God is. I have never pleaded to the Lord so earnestly before in my life.
And to the glory of God, I am selected for fighter training. And not only that but am also selected to be a reserve for an overseas fighter course. I did pray and ask God that if it His will not for me to go for this overseas course, that he would not put me in the reserve. But now that I have been selected to be in the reserve, I have this feeling and confidence that God has a plan for me. Whatever it is, the Lord's will be done!
The Lord has indeed been faithful and gracious to my family and me and there are so many more things that I can thank and praise Him for but I shall leave that for another time or face to face sharing.
All Glory to the Lord of Hosts!
